Tuesday, July 11, 2017

This Is It

Physicality
Temporal space
A warp -

Then the weft
By choice and action

Weaving
The shifting here and now
Into a multi-layered tapestry

Joining other myriad, multitudinous threads
Linked in fantastic patterns (possibilities?)

With just a map, self-made
That tells me - You are here ↗
;)




Sunday, November 30, 2014

Perspective

she watches the world
slowly fade around the edges
from the way she'd last thought
of it in shape and form
its just a constant drone in the head now
drowning out thought
a lot, a lot of the same
people voices conversations invarying
recast in different games
played over and over again
time is frozen but gone so fast

and figures.. a good bracing walk should cure it

Friday, November 28, 2014

Quest

give me something
that catches my eye
makes my heart beat
that little bit faster
makes me want

to reach out
put it all in
give it all i've got
just to see
if it is really possible

can be real
a wish
a want
an urge
to do

they say there's a world
out there
beyond this cocoon

and the here and now
to make a choice

perhaps
outside of the given

but maybe its time
to go out and play
own the game
and keep moving

Monday, September 15, 2014

The Old Guava Tree


It stood against the garden wall
Cutting off the empty plot next door
Pale brown, speckled with white
Light green leaves, darker green fruit
Brightening as they grew to ripeness

I learnt to climb on that tree
(My mother led the way!)
One foot on the truncated arm
Of the neigbouring custard apple
The scramble on to the ever flaking grey perimeter
Then finally atop its convenient branch 
To sit, to lean, to read
To peer out at the lane outside 
Gulmohar shaded, mostly quiet
But for the light bustle of the evening

Its gone now, but evergreen
The stuff of memories, familiarity, home
Even under the canopy of mango leaves
Dripping with rain
Years away in the monsoon forest

Sunday, November 20, 2011

baarish, chai aur gaana!

Grey skies across the highway
Dotted with scurrying cars in sharp relief
Veering off into lanes bordered with trees
With a chance to slow down
And gaze into the newly washed bursting green

A piping hot cup of tea
To warm the cockles of your heart ;)
Watching people hurrying under umbrellas
Going past on the way to work
Or revelling in the drizzle with covered heads

Turning up the music to let
The sounds of joy, faith and a little introspection
Resonate with their boundless energy (and some hope!!!)
For the day ahead

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

An Afternoon

All geared up
Wound up in anticipation
Climbing onto the jungle jeeps
In their earthy hues

Standing tall on the metal frames
An unimpeded view all around
Jolting on the roads
Then suddenly off

On forest trails
Undulating through the trees
Banked by termite mounds
Through the grassy flats
And monsoon river

Sedate langurs strike a pose
Green wings, yellow beaks, red chests
Flutter at the tips of the tall grass

A lazy monitor lizard or two
Taking only moments to size up the invasion
Amble across the uneven ground

A mongoose scampers past
As we stop to measure its progress
Disappearing into the undergrowth

Then – the guide points out
To the lumbering passage of
The other uncrowned king of the jungle
Making his heavy way to the water hole
Our presence sensed; he walks this way
Trunk up high with a deep warning rumble

Satisfied, he carries on
Washing, blowing dust onto broad grey back
Claiming his surroundings with inherent majesty

Tired, making our way back
A pug mark – sign of the elusive tigress!
Parked in silence with bated breath
Willing her to make an appearance
Almost giving up and in an instant
She goes past – a flash!
Seen by only two of us but a tale for the rest

Tall eucalyptus and exploding lantana – soon to be gone
Strutting pheasant and quail
A tortoise camouflaged against rocks on a dry riverbed
The paradise flycatcher’s unmatched tail in flight
Complete the collage of an afternoon
Where life carries on in a timeless cycle

Uninspired Musings

The age of technology
Tools in the hands of idiots
Creativity to obviate effort

The age of enlightenment
Self awareness against relationships in flux
Coloured balls smashing on a green table

The age of communication
Strangers selling, selling, selling
The new corporate identity

Humanity tipping the balance of all existence
With the need for more, more, MORE
The Cornucopians and Malthusians battle on

Monday, November 23, 2009

The Best Run

I think of how it is
Getting atop the highest waves

Digging into the rising swell
Pushing ahead with everything
To reach the crest and get the right line

The river flows on regardless
But it is all about the best run!

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Field of Butterflies

We sit under the spreading banyan
Young, yet already imposing
Blessed shade from the beating sun
In widest expanse of blue sky

Wispy cloud against fuzzy blue at one end
To ripe white fluff on sharp azure overhead
A canvas for trees growing tall in freedom
Home to myriad feathered friends

Green grasses wave gently
Marked here and there
By the constant flutter of little wings
Yellow, pale green, brown and orange, black and white

Two cameras, now on standby
Stay readied to follow
The slightest movement and flash of colour
In the warm buzz of hidden life

We look out in companionable silence
Orange and camouflage green domes in the distance
Makeshift kitchen and cupboard on wheels
No more than specks in this big picture
Happy to be here :)

Sunday, August 30, 2009

JUMP!!

Braced, sliding in
Amid wild yells even as others leap
Into the roiling river

Water crashes over,
Rushing up the nose, into the ears
And silence, till head breaks free
To the sounds of beating waves

Turning face to let it wash over, catch breath
Instant panic gives way to adrenalin
Letting the river carry all along
Bobbing in red buoyancy

Spilling into the calm
Pillowed by water, looking to the sun
The dark shadows underneath (imagined?) lose menace

Giving way to fullness
Of deep valley, flowing water
And green mountains against blue sky
To exhilaration, and peace

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Yeh Duniya Agar Mil Bhi Jaye

We the people don’t like the world we are born into
There has to be a reason we keep trying to remake it

Get your eyeballs full of all the mountains you can get
Before someone makes a big road over it
We’d need it for all the cars you know
There is a lot of gazing, splashing, floating to do in the river
Before concrete, silt, fumes, powerboat, lead to the end
Concrete blocks will fall, some of us will die
Many others will die anyway swept into the sea

This is the world we are building in our image
This is how we account with each other, the so many of us
We claim ownership over resources
Though we are only one of the species struggling for survival, sustenance
We trade among ourselves for profit
We fight today for sharing costs of our life
Should we divide it by person or national boundaries?

I wish I had started earlier
Discovering morning blue and early sun
Yellow in-your-face summer laburnum
Flaming flame of the forest, icy greeny blue water
A world by choice

Monday, December 1, 2008

The War Paradigm

We are living it. This is the age of technology, the age of markets, the age of development; yet the spectre of war looms dark in the background. Each time we think we've moved ahead, we are precipitated once more into the vortex… the victim or helpless spectator.

The human state and the state of war

Human history is the story of the rise and fall of the great empires across the world. We have the stories of civilisation, industrialisation, the emergence of technologies, the rise of cooperation and cooperative mechanisms as institutions, the rule of law and various regulatory authorities cutting across boundaries. But these stories for most part have also been caught up with and have been subjugated to notions of power and control.

Rise of society and civilisation has been followed by the fall, and the rise of the nation state and all therein has been accompanied by the development of the war machine to protect it. Now inter-state wars have given way in prominence to intra-state and proxy wars and fears of another world war are subsumed under the rising threat of terrorism.

War as a paradigm

Whichever way we turn, there appears to be a war impending or in the offing. The state of war predicated on the notions of power and control is perpetuated by the very system, mindset and beliefs we live by. The rules of the game leave the players little choice. But who is to say that the rules cannot be changed, or the notions of power and control reconsidered (or even replaced)?

There is much to support the understanding that the war game is but a paradigm, even at the level of a society or nation or a global system. Sociologists and constructivists have built their entire discipline on the premise that society, culture and our way of being is a social construct, allowing for the entire basis of the concept of social engineering. Marx had made the distinction between human subjectivity and the material world in his vision of the capitalist society, and warned against the power of the super-structure of dominating ideals and beliefs: all that "men say, imagine, conceive" which spills over to politics, law, and so forth.

Feminist political theory has attributed the prominence of war as a valid resort in human relations to the fact that structuring and managing these relations in terms of society and state has long been a primarily male preserve. The democratic peace theory which is the profession that democracies do not go to war against each other, builds upon the foundation that where the people themselves are concerned war is not an option, especially against other people. Populations and the media today are also talking of war as a political tool.

Different theories and approaches for various ends – but what the point here is, is that there are alternatives to the zero-sum game of war in its many faces.

A paradigm shift

Outside of the theorising there are so many indicators that we as the people can break away. Werner Erhard when dealing with human awareness and potential tapped into ontological spaces or a way of 'being' that can determine operative paradigms, as a lot of my friends who underwent the programme at some point would relate to. As most of us begin to disentangle from routine and engage outwards we are beginning to see the bigger picture out there, even as the term "getting the bigger picture" strengthens its roots in common parlance.

There are alternatives, not only alternative rules to the war paradigm but alternative paradigms themselves. There is a humanity bigger than war; and as the other looming threat of climate change continues to remind us, a world bigger than human kind too. There is much that can be enjoyed of this world bigger and beyond, if only we can make the paradigm shift.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Jhumki

It looks rather spare at first glance... a large, L-shaped room with minimal furniture (some nice pieces though, for the appreciative eye), a large painting stuck behind a sofa, interestingly random knick-knacks in the likely corners. A second look reveals the brightly coloured food and water bowls tucked away next to a strategic wall, a host of well-chewed brightly coloured toys ranging from a cross-eyed cock with a wing torn off and a mangled rope-fringe to a variety of balls and squeakies (no dirty puns intended at any time!!!). And then she scampers in… small, shiny black with enquiring eyes and a furiously waving tail, bringing the room to life. :D

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Stephie

I knew this little lady who could not have been loved more. I met her when she was well past her prime, but still had the softest, silkiest coat and soulful eyes that also missed nothing. As I grew to know her better I realised she was integral to many lives – she knew all family and friends inside out, and more importantly, gave each the space and the love they needed.

She had also developed the traits of loved elders who take their space and attention as a right. All who have met her have competed for space on the bed, or been pulled to pet her immediately when she would give 'the look' or reach out the minute she felt she wasn't getting her due. But this competition from each time that I can remember resulted in a cosy group hug – with Stephie at the heart of it – that lasted pretty much the entire visit.

She had the fullest life reaching everyone around, and still brings a smile to those who think of her. I couldn’t be happier for having known her.

Monday, August 18, 2008

Unsustainable Development

The rains came. And the roads made by mankind were washed away. The roads in Gurgaon caved in – and I do mean caved right in, at least by 8-10 feet, right behind where I stay. These are roads that have just been developed (and are reminiscent of a number of others that are laid all over again at least twice a year in this growing township) to broad splendour, to allow at least 3 cars a side to travel abreast.

Gurgaon is touted as the Millennium City with a breathtaking skyline (though one must admit that this is only so if one is cruising past at a height over the flyovers at NH-8 – the view does change completely at the ground level), the corporate hubs and high-rise apartments. Enormous volumes of resources are being sunk into its expansion and the luxuries on offer (I also refuse to get tempted to get into the whole discussion of resource exploitation and the concretisation of green field and agricultural land to make this Millennium City a reality at this point).

The costs of this development are being borne through the various taxes and charges that are paid by someone, if not all. While I remain a relatively new entrant to the world of bona fide employment and tax paying I have grown up to and continue to be engulfed by the annual March crisis, and scrabbling for change at the toll booth (to and fro) is a daily reality.

I have also spent the last few months steeped in information and interactions around the new nemesis of climate change – and have it on authority that construction and transport remain among the top five human activities that cause global warming (also given that it is primarily human activity that has led us to the current crisis) which in turn will ensure more erratic climatic behaviour as the unseasonal rains that have laid the ground for this tale.

I remain unconvinced by the reality of engaging multiple times in the same development activity that increases the cost of money itself and launches further assaults on our lives and surroundings, on account of insincere commitments of the various stakeholders and bad or downright dishonest workmanship that compromises quality. I also refuse to believe that it is technological or resource incapacities at play with reference to India and her people, with advances across the board that we like to be proud of. In any case I feel like I have God's own task in making my way to work each day.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Bitten by the rafting bug

The first time I went rafting was in November last year. I've been back three more times since, and am waiting for the start of the rafting season again to hit the water.

The weekend getaway begins with the journey to the beach camp at Shivpuri with the volley ball court, the red rafts and yellow paddles that line the river bank, the well-equipped airy tents that line the beach, and the little touches of welcome garlands and refreshments while you look around in relief (at having managed to reach camp) and awe (at the surroundings). The beautiful, silvery beach is the cleanest and the softest sand that I've ever had the luxury to step upon, and there is tree laden with big orange flowers that I look for as I complete the downward climb from the road to the camp. The water is a clear, icy green which meets greens and browns of the foothills that bind the river, which in turn stand against the blue sky and brilliant sunshine.

The usual camp routine begins with a rush towards the tents to discard all extras, change into shorts, and rush back out to stand barefoot on the beach. Food, briefings… and then time to get into the river. I've been to camp with a mix of friends, family and strangers each time, some old-timers and some novices – and the run into the water together is the best start. Cries of 'Har Har Gange', squeals and delighted laughter abound as all dunk themselves and others in the holy river, before going off in rafts or canoes. The day passes with the struggles to synchronise paddles, racing to get to the best rapids, jumping off the raft to let the river carry us along some of the stretches, and the inevitable dunkings and water fights across rafts. We come back tired (but exhilarated) to hot tea, snacks, a shower, and evening revelries around a bonfire on the beach. Starlit skies give way to an early dawn when the fishes are fed, making little ripples as they jump at the bread crumbs thrown in – and it starts all over again.

Over the past visits, I've come to know the names of the rapids on the usual stretch of the river, and some of their peculiarities. Each rafting trip is a different experience of the river, which changes with the season, the time of the day, and the level of water released by the new dam upriver. The different activities – rafting, canoeing, kayaking, bodysurfing, or even jumping off a ledge twenty feet above the water (the 'cliff jump'), and the latest (and possibly most fun) which has been slithering down a fifty feet long rope off a bridge that is sixty feet above the water at one of the most beautiful bends of the river – each add a new dimension. The respect for and trust in the camp guides and the safety equipment are also a critical element. Their passion for the river and for adventure is communicable, as each time at the cliff jump the instructor in the raft races to make the first jump into the deep.

I enjoy the beauty and serenity of the Ganga and the Himalayan foothills and have discovered an enduring and healthy respect for nature. I look forward to the activities that challenge my inertia and force me to go beyond my self, to discover the expanse of possibilities available beyond the routine. I love the fact that without electricity, connectivity, and the need to carry money around I am in a different space and the interactions and relationships here are bound by the now, and by shared experiences. And there are few things better than floating down the Ganga on a nice Sunday morning.

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

The majesty of Delhi's trees

I end up driving a lot, taking a circuitous route to work and back… from gurgaon to cp via the highway and then cut across back to the other side of town – adchini, qutab institutional area, jnu…The first leg of my journey is generally pleasant as this is the time I get to 'hang out' with my cutie (hehe) but it is the drive across the city that has me marveling.

I love the rambling roads and the roundabouts that take you away from the heart of Delhi to the outlying spaces. Most of all I love the towering, green, green trees that shade these wide roads. All that I've read about 'shady, tree-lined avenues' and the dignity and majesty of green Delhi come to life. The chaos on the roads pales in significance (and in terms of irritant value!) just by looking up – at the magnificence of the corridor and the setting afforded to me on a regular basis.

And it isn't just this stretch – no matter how busy the localities, for most people escape to natural havens would mean no more than ten-fifteen minutes. Large parks retaining the original rocky land and green of Delhi, protected ridge areas, the heritage sites dot the city… all just a walk or short drive away.

I realized how much I took it all for granted when recently, driving out through one of the new roads in gurgaon cut through the field and the rock outside of the original settlement areas, I looked up and sighed and told my cutie how I really like traveling this way. He turned around and agreed, adding, 'its like being in Delhi'! But the trees here have some growing up to do.